It's 8:25am....and in 8 days I should be out of the water and hopefully in or just out of transition ready for the journey of 112 on the bike.....if all goes as planned (and by planned, I mean, as I hope)
Last night was another rest night. I have lost all motivation to work out. My body is tired, my legs are heavy, I had the "mud butt" yesterday, I have the sniffles (allergy type symptoms), and mentally drained, yet consumed with thoughts, about the race.
The realization and the gravity of what I'm about to do has hit. It's now channeling that into posivite thoughts about how I'm ready as I'm going to be and making negatives into positives.
This is my one and only shot at becoming an Ironman. I will not do another one. I don't have the time or the patience to do this again. Training for this was a task its self.....so this is it.
In the song "Lose Yourself", the beginning goes:
Look....if you had one shot, one opportunity, to seize everything you ever wanted in one moment, would you capture it or just let it slip
That is a mantra to go by....in Ironman, in Life, at work....anywhere.
And I know that my first few steps on the run course are going to suck. I know this. There is no denying or there isn't any amount of self talk that will replace that. However....Eminem rings true again with his words at the beginning of "Til I Collapse".....
Sometimes you feel tired, you feel weak. And when you feel weak you feel like you want to give up. But you got to search within you, to try to find that inner strenght and just pull that shit out of you. And get that motivation to not give up and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you want to fall flat on your face and collapse.
Tonight is another off night a date night for us. My mom is coming to watch the kiddo's and then go to J's soccer game on Saturday. This weekend, I'm running 6 - 8 miles and also doing 35 miles on the road and possibly a short 20-30 minute run after that. On Monday and Tuesday of next week, I'm going to get in some short rides and runs.....and probably 2 swims....then nothing until 5/18. My last blog post will be next Wednesday (5/15) as we leave on Thursday morning.
This journey is almost over........wow.